Losing Game 7

I am currently sitting in a dark room watching a Saturday Night Live episode from the year 2000. The musical guest is U2 and they’re performing, “Beautiful Day”. It is beautiful, really. For a few minutes, I am distracted.

But now, I need another distraction. Something to take my mind off of the Toronto Maple Leafs losing Game 7 against the Tampa Bay Lightning. I cannot go to sleep. I cannot lay down. I say that more literally than you know.

It is almost midnight, so at least I can do tomorrow’s Wordle soon.

Honestly, I do not know what to do with myself. I have already done the post-mortem Leafs chat with a friend.

Now what?

There really is no clear direction for this post. I am just going to type out words, so they no longer exist in my head.

I keep flipping through songs, thinking I will find the one that fits how I am feeling right now. That song is elusive. I will let you know if I find it by the end of this post.

The Leafs have not won a playoff series since 2004. I remember that year all too well. I remember all of those playoff runs of the early 2000s, actually. It felt like they would last forever. They did not.

This is where I would normally mention other statistics, relating to the last six years, but this is not that kind of post.

All of those numbers have become cumbersome. They are an albatross around this fan base. We do not need them right now. They can wait outside.

When the final buzzer went and the Leafs were eliminated, I was not mad. I was not angry.

And maybe this is wrong to say, but who cares – I was proud of the team. I was proud of the way they fought. That is me being honest.

There will be people who say, “Oh, you are so used to losing that you have come to accept it.”

Sure, there are things to be bitter about. There are things to complain about. That is what you do when you lose. You cycle through all the “what ifs” and “if onlys”. Because if the series of events that we just witnessed were altered at certain points, perhaps the end result is different.

I am not here to publicly criticize anyone.

This loss hurts, but I am struggling to find ways to expand upon that. This would be easier if I were angry, but I am not.

It was always going to be tough to take down the reigning, defending, back-to-back Stanley Cup champions. And with a 3-2 series lead, maybe the Leafs should have. Maybe they should have found a way to win one of the two final games in the series.

But that is just it – maybe.

Not every team can be the team of destiny. I, and other Leaf fans, are so focussed on the story our team is writing that we, sometimes, fail to realize that other teams are also writing their own story at the same time.

That Lightning team is headed toward becoming a dynasty and we just got in their way.

Everyone who was supposed to show up for the Leafs, showed up. I think the Leafs outplayed the Lightning for the majority of the seven games. That is where my absence of words comes from.

It feels like a password has been rejected, even though we entered it correctly.

But the Lightning are champions for a reason and epitomized the Rocky Balboa quote:

“It ain’t about how hard you hit.Β It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.”

They kept moving forward.

This elimination feels different than all the ones that came before it. I will say that. In the past, it felt like the team was scared, or intimidated, by the moment. This year, it looked like they were confident. They looked ready for it.

Again, we do not receive anything for being confident or trying hard, but it should be acknowledged.

Does something have to change?

That is the question.

Maybe I am so far gone that I cannot think rationally anymore, but I still would not fire the Coach, General Manager, or President. I still would not trade anyone out of our core. I might be in the minority with that, and perhaps I am wrong, but that is just how I feel right now.

I think this franchise spent a decade looking for the star players we currently have. To give up on them now, you have to be certain that what you receive back makes you a better team. You cannot guess. You cannot hope. You cannot make a trade for the sake of making a trade. You have to be sure.

Perhaps it is a flaw of mine to sometimes view this team from a fictional standpoint. However, I see a team that has struggled to take the next step and in my head, I always give them that happy ending. The whole, “struggle will be worth it” narrative. Just keep going.

I cannot help it. The alternative is that we fail to get out of the first round forever and I just refuse to believe that.

This team will turn the corner, eventually. That is what I believe. And it will be magical.

I am not ready for the Leafs season to be over, but I never am. It is okay. I am okay.

Over the next few days, I will be doing my best to avoid all the Leafs talk amongst the local media. I am just tired of hearing it. I could lay out all of the talking points for you right now. They are the same ones after every season.

It is just too much.

I never did find a song to fit how I am feeling, if you were wondering.

I think I got all the words out. Thanks for listening.

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17 Responses to Losing Game 7

  1. Ben Berwick says:

    I feel you Paul. Sport is remarkable for the glory – and the pain – it can bestow upon us. I’m not familiar with ice hockey or the Leafs, but my beloved Liverpool FC have been through some lengthy, difficult, barren spells. Until the 2020 Premier League title, we hadn’t won the title for 30 years. However, as the saying goes, ‘form is temporary, class is permanent’. I’m sure the Leafs will be triumphant again!

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    • Paul says:

      I feel your pain. It’s been 55 years since the Leafs won it all. It’s silly that we put ourselves through the pain just for the hope of potential glory, but that’s why we love sports. The hardest thing is we had a really good team this year, but ran into the defending champs.

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  2. Monty Vern says:

    This reminds me of how I felt when the Devils lost to the Kings in the 2012 finals. Just empty.

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  3. Nooooooo 😭😭😭😭 I was waking up to check the score!!! Thats so sad!!! I think the media put way too much pressure on them and a hyper focus on what a win in the first round would mean for the franchise. But I think if they got through the first round, the momentum would have pushed them so far. Uggghhhh I’m so sorry friend! Big hugs

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    • Paul says:

      Yup, I think there is way too much pressure put on the team in general. Our best players are 26 years old and under so for the last few years, we’ve been putting all this pressure on kids who are in their early 20s. Their brains weren’t even fully developed yet! Give them time.

      I agree, if they got passed this round, they could’ve gone far. It’s coming though, some day.

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  4. They played the two time defending champions and forced game 7. They lost by one goal. A ref made a horrible call and some other calls weren’t made that should have been. It was not a happy ending but I stand behind my team, like you. Oh, and our goalie is now officially known as Soup. πŸ₯΄πŸ˜›

    GoLeafsGo next year. πŸ₯°

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    • Paul says:

      Well summed up! I can’t be mad at the team after that game. They did everything they could, Tampa just wouldn’t let us score. I think they’re closer than they’ve ever been to breaking through and I hope things don’t get blown up over the off-season.

      Oh, and I am calm hahah

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  5. Let me know if you got Wordle. I didn’t. It was annoying, today.

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  7. Paul, I was rooting for the Leafs as well. Sorry it didn’t go there way. The Rangers are now finding out you better put a stake through the heart of the Lightning if you want to get by them. Your team has a much better outlook than our Flyers. When they won the two Cups in ’74 and ’75 (and I was in the city both times celebrating with the million or so others who turned out), who would have ever thought that would be the ONLY cups to-date?

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    • Paul says:

      Tampa is extremely tough to beat 4 times. I’ve gotten over the loss by telling myself that this is just Tampa’s time to be dominant and there’s nothing anyone else could do about it. I almost wish the Leafs were in the Western Conference. They play the same way as the Oilers and Avalanche. Oh well.

      I really thought some of those Flyers teams of the early 2000s were good enough to win a cup. They always gave the Leafs problems.

      Correct me if I’m wrong, but it seems like a lot of the Flyers most recent top draft picks haven’t panned out. Nolan Patrick stands out, even though there was talk of him going 1st that year. Cale Makar went 2 picks after him, that would sting a bit.

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