Sometimes

Sometimes all I want to do is go home
but no one left a trail
and I don’t have a map
I’m sorry

Sometimes I don’t know what to say
so I say I don’t know
but that’s never the right answer
I’m sorry

Sometimes I feel like I let you down
so I sneak around the conversation
to avoid the point where I will
I’m sorry

Sometimes I want to recreate the past
to see the people and places I miss
so I can say and do the things I should have
I’m sorry

Sometimes I don’t see my reflection
it’s as if someone else took my place
and is living my life
I’m sorry

Sometimes I cry
to let the tears cleanse my face
so I can see my reflection again
I’m sorry

Sometimes I’m afraid to tell the truth
because I don’t like the reaction
and that hurts
I’m sorry

Sometimes others believe in me
and I think they’re kidding
because I turn everything into a joke
I’m sorry

Sometimes I want to show the world what I can do
but something stops me from going through
because I think they won’t care
I’m sorry

Sometimes I try to make everyone else happy
but it’s rarely reciprocated
and I wonder why
I’m sorry

Sometimes I’m stuck in an old mindset
thinking everyone is laughing at me
and if you only knew how paralyzing that is
I’m sorry

Sometimes I need you and wonder if you need me too
but we’ll never admit it
because we don’t know each other anymore
I’m sorry

Sometimes I feel alone
and I don’t know if I like it
or if I hate it
I’m sorry

But sometimes there is a sign from above
telling me my life fits like a glove
so I look for hope
and I’m not sorry

Because I don’t won’t to be sorry anymore
not today, not tomorrow
I just want to be me
no apology.

                 “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.”

                                                                    – Lao Tzu