Sometimes

Sometimes all I want to do is go home
but no one left a trail
and I don’t have a map
I’m sorry

Sometimes I don’t know what to say
so I say I don’t know
but that’s never the right answer
I’m sorry

Sometimes I feel like I let you down
so I sneak around the conversation
to avoid the point where I will
I’m sorry

Sometimes I want to recreate the past
to see the people and places I miss
so I can say and do the things I should have
I’m sorry

Sometimes I don’t see my reflection
it’s as if someone else took my place
and is living my life
I’m sorry

Sometimes I cry
to let the tears cleanse my face
so I can see my reflection again
I’m sorry

Sometimes I’m afraid to tell the truth
because I don’t like the reaction
and that hurts
I’m sorry

Sometimes others believe in me
and I think they’re kidding
because I turn everything into a joke
I’m sorry

Sometimes I want to show the world what I can do
but something stops me from going through
because I think they won’t care
I’m sorry

Sometimes I try to make everyone else happy
but it’s rarely reciprocated
and I wonder why
I’m sorry

Sometimes I’m stuck in an old mindset
thinking everyone is laughing at me
and if you only knew how paralyzing that is
I’m sorry

Sometimes I need you and wonder if you need me too
but we’ll never admit it
because we don’t know each other anymore
I’m sorry

Sometimes I feel alone
and I don’t know if I like it
or if I hate it
I’m sorry

But sometimes there is a sign from above
telling me my life fits like a glove
so I look for hope
and I’m not sorry

Because I don’t won’t to be sorry anymore
not today, not tomorrow
I just want to be me
no apology.

                 “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.”

                                                                    – Lao Tzu

 

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28 Responses to Sometimes

  1. Talula Teabag says:

    Sometimes I read what Paul writes
    He touches a cord in my heart
    I wonder if he knows exactly how I feel
    I’m not sorry

    Liked by 2 people

  2. Miriam says:

    This is really touching and heartfelt Paul

    Liked by 1 person

  3. luckilylenny says:

    I wonder if you have the power to know every reader of your blog. How come that your words are exactly my feeling right now Captain?

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Sometimes all you can do is sigh. Really related to this

    Liked by 1 person

  5. cedricramey says:

    Really feeling this poem.

    Liked by 1 person

  6. Ariel Lynn says:

    Wonderful ending! No apologies for being yourself is a fantastic message. Bravo! 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  7. Omg Paul. Is this a love poem?? Either way it is very well written. I am proud blog sister.

    Liked by 1 person

  8. Barb Knowles says:

    One of your best poems! You’ve exposed emotions, fears and hope. This will resonate with so many people. “Sometimes I cry, to let the tears cleanse my face,so I can see my reflection again
    I’m sorry
    Sometimes I’m afraid to tell the truth, because I don’t like the reaction, and that hurts
    I’m sorry
    Sometimes others believe in me, and I think they’re kidding, because I turn everything into a joke
    I’m sorry”
    And then, the hope.
    THAT’S what resonated with me.

    Liked by 1 person

  9. This is how I feel today.

    Liked by 1 person

  10. Val says:

    It resonates with me too.

    Liked by 1 person

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